Hey there!

I realised that I no longer use this blog but it is listed in a few places so people might still be coming here.

I have a new blog now: http://aus2usa.blogspot.com/

365 Days

The awesome Tiny Donna inspired me a few months ago to join Flickr and partake in the 365 project. It's basically a project where you take a photo of yourself every day for a year. I made it to day 99 but had missed a few days here and there. I am restarting but thought I would share the photos I took for the first attempt. Note that the project allows any part of yourself to be in the photo so thats why sometimes you'll only see a foot or a hand etc...

Could things get any worse?

Had 3 aboriginal girls come into the shop today and 2 of them distracted me while the other one stole my work mobile & my purse with $60 in it and all my cards license etc.

And to make things even worse Billy put in his pin number wrong 3 times so neither of us have a working keycard.

FUCKING FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm not dead

Hey all,

Yes I am still alive. I am not sure if anyone is checking on here but hi all!!

Things have been kind of up & down here lately. We have had some shit to deal with with our property back in the US and it was looking like we were going to have to postpone going back, BUT Billy's folks bailed us out AGAIN! God I love them so much!

I am getting really excited about moving back. So many things I am looking forward to.

I am totally obsessed with Flickr and if anyone wants to check out my photo skills (not much!!) you can check it out here
Weightloss wise I have no idea how much I weigh. I havn't been to a WW meeting in a month at least. I havn't weighed myself here at home either. My clothes feel the same so at least I don't think I have gained!!

Well thats about it!!

xox

I pretty much knew it

How evil are you?

Fragile

I am feeling rather fragile at the moment and little things are really getting to me more than normal.

So I am going to take a break from Blogger. I don't know why I am even writing this as I don't think anyone is reading anymore. This is one of the things thats getting to me.

I don't have any real life friends and now I kind of feel like my online friends have abandoned me too.

I know people have their own lives and stuff so don't think I am being a selfish bitch. I just am going through a rough patch and would really rather just not have this added to it all.

Not sure when I will come back.

Scared

No weigh-in for me tomorrow, instead I am getting my Implanon taken out! oohhh Am shitting myself a little. Me no likey pain.

I want to have a baby. LIKE NOW! Every time I see a baby in the shops etc I get all gooey. I held a baby at work the other day for a customer and OMG I almost cried. SERIOUSLY...

We have to wait though. We havn't even had genetic counselling which is highly recommended for Fragile X carriers.

Shit... shit... FUCK..

I feel like time is slipping away. I am 32. Not getting younger and a side-affect from carrying the Fragile X chromosome can be Total Ovarian Shutdown leading to infertility and early menopause.


FUCK... Sorry about all the swearing but I am sitting here next to my beautiful sleeping husband and I want to have his baby so bad it actually physically hurts me.

ok.. I'm ok.. I think..

HOLY SHIT!

I got a heap of hair chopped off tonight. It was a spur of the moment thing and I am kind of thinking it might have been a BAAAAAAD idea.

what do you guys think??

Silly quiz

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7am
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Cloverfield
4. What is your favorite TV show? Lost
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Porridge & coffee
6. What is your middle name? Audrey
7. What food do you dislike? peas
8. What is your favorite CD at moment? don't really listen to CD's
9. What kind of car do you drive? Kia Rio
10. Favorite sandwich? bacon & eggs with bbq sauce
11. What characteristics do you despise? selfishness, greed
12. Favorite item of clothing? shoes
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you
go? Egypt
14. Favorite brand of clothing? Cue
15. Where would you retire to? Australia
16. What was your most recent memorable birthday? they are all pretty mediocre!
17. Favourite sport to watch? Soccer
18. Furthest place you are sending this? I'm not sending it
19. Person you expect to send it back first? as above
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? night
22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? I REALLY want to have a baby and it might happen soon!
23. What did you want to be when you were little? lots of things, nuclear physicist, librarian, doctor, chef
24. How are you today? meh
25. What is your favorite candy? anything sour
26. What is your favorite flower? blue iris
27. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? Billy's 30th
28. What are you listening to right now? nothing
29. What was the last thing you ate? Sherbet cone
30. Do you wish on stars? not for a long time
31. If you were a crayon what would you be? pink
32. How is the weather right now? Cold
33. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Billy
34. Favorite soft drink? coke zero
35. Favorite restaurant? Jaws
36. Real hair color ? mousy brown
37. What was your favorite toy as a child? matchbox cars, I was a tomboy
38. Summer or winter? winter
39. Hugs or kisses? gimme both!!!!
40. Chocolate or Vanilla? depends I like both
41. Coffee or tea? COFFEE!
42. Do you want your friends to email you back? N/A
43. When was the last time you cried? The other night watching footage from the China earthquake.
44. What is under your bed? nothing, dust.
45. What did you do last night? made dinner, played on flickr, usual thing
46. What are you afraid of? losing my family. being alone
47. Salty or sweet? both.
48. How many keys on your key ring? a million
49. How many years at your current job? 1 month or so
50. Favourite day of the week ? Wednesday - my day off
51. Do you make friends easily? I used to, but they don't tend to make the effort to stay my friend and I got tired of being the only one who made the effort.
52. How many people will you send this too? 0, its on my blog.

Dammit!

I bloody gained!

0.4kg. Am pissed off... but I was not 100% perfect this week so I can't say I am surprised. So now I am 700g away from that bookmark. Fucking bookmark. It haunts me!

I have felt like crap all day. Every now and then I get Facial Neuralgia which is basically nerve pain on the left side of my face. My ear, cheek and gum on that side aches for a couple of days and it sucks balls.

Anyway, apart from that all is good I suppose.