Hey there!

I realised that I no longer use this blog but it is listed in a few places so people might still be coming here.

I have a new blog now: http://aus2usa.blogspot.com/

365 Days

The awesome Tiny Donna inspired me a few months ago to join Flickr and partake in the 365 project. It's basically a project where you take a photo of yourself every day for a year. I made it to day 99 but had missed a few days here and there. I am restarting but thought I would share the photos I took for the first attempt. Note that the project allows any part of yourself to be in the photo so thats why sometimes you'll only see a foot or a hand etc...

Could things get any worse?

Had 3 aboriginal girls come into the shop today and 2 of them distracted me while the other one stole my work mobile & my purse with $60 in it and all my cards license etc.

And to make things even worse Billy put in his pin number wrong 3 times so neither of us have a working keycard.

FUCKING FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm not dead

Hey all,

Yes I am still alive. I am not sure if anyone is checking on here but hi all!!

Things have been kind of up & down here lately. We have had some shit to deal with with our property back in the US and it was looking like we were going to have to postpone going back, BUT Billy's folks bailed us out AGAIN! God I love them so much!

I am getting really excited about moving back. So many things I am looking forward to.

I am totally obsessed with Flickr and if anyone wants to check out my photo skills (not much!!) you can check it out here
Weightloss wise I have no idea how much I weigh. I havn't been to a WW meeting in a month at least. I havn't weighed myself here at home either. My clothes feel the same so at least I don't think I have gained!!

Well thats about it!!

xox

I pretty much knew it

How evil are you?

Fragile

I am feeling rather fragile at the moment and little things are really getting to me more than normal.

So I am going to take a break from Blogger. I don't know why I am even writing this as I don't think anyone is reading anymore. This is one of the things thats getting to me.

I don't have any real life friends and now I kind of feel like my online friends have abandoned me too.

I know people have their own lives and stuff so don't think I am being a selfish bitch. I just am going through a rough patch and would really rather just not have this added to it all.

Not sure when I will come back.

Scared

No weigh-in for me tomorrow, instead I am getting my Implanon taken out! oohhh Am shitting myself a little. Me no likey pain.

I want to have a baby. LIKE NOW! Every time I see a baby in the shops etc I get all gooey. I held a baby at work the other day for a customer and OMG I almost cried. SERIOUSLY...

We have to wait though. We havn't even had genetic counselling which is highly recommended for Fragile X carriers.

Shit... shit... FUCK..

I feel like time is slipping away. I am 32. Not getting younger and a side-affect from carrying the Fragile X chromosome can be Total Ovarian Shutdown leading to infertility and early menopause.


FUCK... Sorry about all the swearing but I am sitting here next to my beautiful sleeping husband and I want to have his baby so bad it actually physically hurts me.

ok.. I'm ok.. I think..

HOLY SHIT!

I got a heap of hair chopped off tonight. It was a spur of the moment thing and I am kind of thinking it might have been a BAAAAAAD idea.

what do you guys think??

Silly quiz

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7am
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Cloverfield
4. What is your favorite TV show? Lost
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Porridge & coffee
6. What is your middle name? Audrey
7. What food do you dislike? peas
8. What is your favorite CD at moment? don't really listen to CD's
9. What kind of car do you drive? Kia Rio
10. Favorite sandwich? bacon & eggs with bbq sauce
11. What characteristics do you despise? selfishness, greed
12. Favorite item of clothing? shoes
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you
go? Egypt
14. Favorite brand of clothing? Cue
15. Where would you retire to? Australia
16. What was your most recent memorable birthday? they are all pretty mediocre!
17. Favourite sport to watch? Soccer
18. Furthest place you are sending this? I'm not sending it
19. Person you expect to send it back first? as above
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? night
22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? I REALLY want to have a baby and it might happen soon!
23. What did you want to be when you were little? lots of things, nuclear physicist, librarian, doctor, chef
24. How are you today? meh
25. What is your favorite candy? anything sour
26. What is your favorite flower? blue iris
27. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? Billy's 30th
28. What are you listening to right now? nothing
29. What was the last thing you ate? Sherbet cone
30. Do you wish on stars? not for a long time
31. If you were a crayon what would you be? pink
32. How is the weather right now? Cold
33. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Billy
34. Favorite soft drink? coke zero
35. Favorite restaurant? Jaws
36. Real hair color ? mousy brown
37. What was your favorite toy as a child? matchbox cars, I was a tomboy
38. Summer or winter? winter
39. Hugs or kisses? gimme both!!!!
40. Chocolate or Vanilla? depends I like both
41. Coffee or tea? COFFEE!
42. Do you want your friends to email you back? N/A
43. When was the last time you cried? The other night watching footage from the China earthquake.
44. What is under your bed? nothing, dust.
45. What did you do last night? made dinner, played on flickr, usual thing
46. What are you afraid of? losing my family. being alone
47. Salty or sweet? both.
48. How many keys on your key ring? a million
49. How many years at your current job? 1 month or so
50. Favourite day of the week ? Wednesday - my day off
51. Do you make friends easily? I used to, but they don't tend to make the effort to stay my friend and I got tired of being the only one who made the effort.
52. How many people will you send this too? 0, its on my blog.

Dammit!

I bloody gained!

0.4kg. Am pissed off... but I was not 100% perfect this week so I can't say I am surprised. So now I am 700g away from that bookmark. Fucking bookmark. It haunts me!

I have felt like crap all day. Every now and then I get Facial Neuralgia which is basically nerve pain on the left side of my face. My ear, cheek and gum on that side aches for a couple of days and it sucks balls.

Anyway, apart from that all is good I suppose.

Can I do it?

Can I lose 300g tomorrow?

I weighed myself this morning and I have gained, however my scales at home are a little unreliable.

I really want that bookmark dammit!! And I want another Pandora charm! I have actually stopped wearing the bracelet because its so empty! 5 charms is all I have so I am punishing myself by not wearing it. I really should have lost a bunch more by now.

WE are supposed to be going to the movies tonight to see Ironman but I am so tired, I don't really want to. Ashley stayed home today aswell so he might not even want to go (doubt it though!!)

I havn't been sleeping alot lately. Lots of stuff going through my mind.

Well wish me luck for my weigh in tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

Regina Spektor

I urge everyone to listen to these songs. She is FANTASTIC!!!! I love her SOOO much!!

Wednesday Weigh in

After having so much chocolate this week I still managed to lose 0.5kg this week!

So just 300g away from that damn bookmark!! I will get it next week or I might kill someone!! DAMMIT!

I have the flu at the moment and feel like poo. Am in bed realxing!

DONNA! This is for you

This is the clip from the Late Show that I was referring to:

Sunday walk

We decided to go for a walk yesterday down to the Nursery near home. Of course I took my new camera!
We had a yummy lunch at the cafe there and then looked at all the pretty plants & flowers. I took heaps of pictures as you can see:

This is my BLT:


Ashley's lunch:


Billy & I shared this aswell (naughty I know)


The nursery:


Pretty flowers:






My favourite one is this one but its best seen in the large size so cop this link:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/electrongirl/2463776291/sizes/l/in/set-72157604876166111/

Stupid Hormones

I have fallen off the wagon so badly this week.

I have had TTOM for a week almost and am SO PMSing its not funny. I cannot stop eating! I have been scoffing chocolate like a woman possessed!!

I am so mad at myself but I can't stop it!

Stupid woman crap!!

Weigh-in

I lost 1kg. Not too bad considering I am sooooo bloated!! Stupid period!

So now I am 800g away from my bookmark and I have to wait 2 weeks before I can weigh in again.

I will bloody get it at next weigh in or I am going to SCREAM!

DAMMIT!

Woke up this morning all crampy and bloated... yep TTOM has come! Oh wonderful! Could have waited just 1 day, but no it has to come now on weigh in day.

So I highly doubt I'll get my bookmark today. And next week I have to miss my meeting as the girl I swapped with already had an ultrasound appointment booked in for the Wednesday.

Oh well, I should know not to expect big things anymore!!

Will fill you all in on how it goes later.

YUMMMMMMMM

Last night I chopped up a bunch of veges: carrots, celery, broccoli, zucchini, onion. The put it all in the slow cooker with a few chicken breasts, tin tomatoes, vege stock, soy sauce and left it on low over-night. Woke up this morning to the house smelling WONDERFUL and this:



I am having it for lunch and dinner!!

In other news its Ashleys 14 Birthday today and also the first day back at school! 14! I feel so old!!

Private Blog

Ok, I have decided to keep a private blog again.

I am totally fine with people reading about my weightloss and stuff but I am starting to feel a little uncomfortable with the whole world knowing all my personal stuff aswell.

Now there are a few of you who will get automatic invites to my private blog, but of anyone else out there wants an invite, let me know and if I feel that I can trust you with all my crazy crap you'll get access too.

So let me know your email addresses & I'll add you.

electrongirl@iinet.net.au

Thanks peeps