I'm still alive

Hi all!

I am still alive. I just havn't gotten around to updating here.

Things have been a little tough lately. I quit my job and got a new one but had a 2week gap in between and my new job is a monthly pay cycle so we have been struggling financially for a while.

I had to stop going to Weight Watchers because of this. We havnt been able to afford good food either so I have gained everything I have lost back.

I am not going to let it get to me though. I have a plan.

I got paid finally and yesterday we went to Target and I bought some of those long shorts that look like work pants but shorter. I am going to wear them and short sleeve tops to work whicle its warm and I am going to spend my lunch break walking.

I can eat my lunch while I work and this way I get some form of exercise in my day.

*sigh*

Weighed in this morning and gained 0.6kg.

Pathetic. I am pathetic.

I have been doing WW for 12 weeks now, and lost a dismal 2.1kg.

Most people have gotten to 10kg by then!!

I am tired, depressed.. I just want to cry.

Why do I do this.

I have been going to WW for like 7 years off and on, and I have never gotten my 5kg bookmark.

Even though I lost like 20kg on my own 2 years ago, I have never been successful on WW.

I quit, I give up. I stop going to meetings. Yet I know it works.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!

Did someone say "I lost 0.9kg??"

Yes they did, and that someone was ME!!!

Yeah baby!! I went to my weigh in this morning not expecting much at all and i lost 0.9kg!!

AWESOME!!!!!!!

But I know that I am going to have to be extra careful this week as I think it was a bit of a fluke!!

Meh

Ain't feeling the best at the moment. I have had my period now for 3 weeks and its been really heavy.

I am so tired all the time, even though I get at least 8 hours of sleep a night. I am starving all the time, I feel so down.

I also feel really lonely. Even though my husband is my best friend, he is all I have. I don't have anyone else.

I gained last week and initially I took it really well, but now I find myself dwelling on it.

I just feel really deflated and so ready to give up again.

Weigh in

Well it was weigh in today and seeming I have had my horrible TTOM for the past 2 weeks and have been feeling really tired and crabby my diet has been really bad: KFC, cake, etc etc.

I gained 0.7kg. Not too bad considering.

But I am fine. Just getting back on the horse and moving forward.

Its a long weekend here so I am going to enjoy it. Its beautiful outside so might go and sit in the sun!!

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Nostalgia

I was browsing YouTube and found some old videos of songs I love from the 80's.

Anyone remember these?







Makes me feel old!!

I'm BACK!

Wow, its been 5 months since I posted on here!! Thats terrible!

Well I am back doing Weight Watchers and and after a rocky start I am doing good.

Week 1 - Lost .4kg
Didn't go back for 4 weeks. Gained 1.7kg
Week 3 - lost 1.2kg

So am back on track and happy.

Billy and I have been walking lately and I am so proud of myself for doing it, because I am the biggest lazy ass I know.

I have changed jobs again. Now working at Dorsogna in accounts receivable. Its good and the money is good too.

So everything is really good at the moment and I am happy!!

Sick

Yep... I'm sick. I think its the flu. Went to bed with a killer headache and woke up in the middle of the night with a really sore throat and then this morning I got up feeling like death.

Good news though, I lost another 700g at weigh in!! Go me!!

Well off to rest I go..

Going good

Its been a while since I posted... so slack!!

Well things have been going really well the past couple of week. I lost 1.1kg last week and this week I lost another 0.7kg. So thats 2.6kg all up. Not bad for 4 weeks.

Our wedding anniversary was on Saturday and we went out for dinner and had a lovely evening. I definately went over points but I think I deserved it.

I have been perfect the rest of the week though. I cancelled my Curves membership and Billy & I are going to join the local gym together.

I think if I have someone to go with I will be more motivated to go.

Proud of myself

I have been soooo good this week!!

We had subway last night and I normally go for a footlong chicken fillet. But instead I got a 6 inch roast chicken and I even had enough points for a cookie.

The tablets I think are working. I don't think about food as much. I am not always hungry and I actually feel more motivated. I was off sick from work on Thursday with really bad cramps but i kept wanting to get out of bed and do housework!! My mind was so organised!!

I think they are going to help me but I don't want to use them for long as I don't want to depend on them and they aren't cheap!!

I am at work at the moment. It's 40 degrees outside, thank god for Aircon!!

Well better do some work I suppose!

Explains alot!!

Well... wouldn't you know it.

I got my period today. First one in about 6 months due to being on Implanon.

So this probably helps explain the teeny loss.

I am home sick today as I feel like crap. Ever since getting the implant my cycle has been fairly random with one time of 6 months continuous bleeding. But it stopped after a while and now I only get something once in a while. But when I do its here with a vengence.

I am in pain and feel so drained.

I have started Blackmores Weightloss Accelerate tablets today to see if they help. A girl at work told me about them.

Well going to try to get some housework done.

Dissapointed

Well I went to the WW meeting tonight. Not my usual meeting and at night not morning.

And I lost a huge 0.1kg.

I am really mad.

I really wanted to reach my mini-goal of 87kg.

I feel like I have been doing this for nothing.

I eat salad for lunch everyday. I don't have chocolate. I have given up coke, REAL coffee.... so much....

and what do I get.... 0.8kg loss in 3 weeks.... pathetic.

That time of year again

Well my son is back to school tomorrow. The 6 weeks has gone pretty fast.

I got him all new uniforms, shoes & socks on the weekend. So he'll look so good!!

I also got him a new backpack and lunch pack.

I have been going really well with WW. I have kept on my points all week.

I only have 1 day to get to my first mini-goal of 87kg, but I honestly doubt I'll make it. I'm fairly sure I have lost but not that much! I'd need to have lost 2kg.

Lst night I made lamb steaks with baked potatoes & salad and it was sooooo good. And I was such a good girl. There was heaps of leftover but I let my hubby take it all for lunch the next day.

I had Special K this morning but I wasn't too keen on it. Now I remember why I didn't ever buy it!! Oh well.

I have been seeing so many nice clothes in the stores recently and can't wait to go skinny clothes shopping.

I found an awesome black trenchcoat in Target so I lay-byed it in a size 12. I just have to lose weight to fit into it now!

The past few days have been so hot so I havn't really felt like eating much.

Well hope everyone is doing well.

My goals

I decided to set some small goals to help me get to my ultimate goal.

Mini-goals:
31/01 - 87kg
28/02 - 84kg
31/03 - 81kg
30/04 - 78kg
31/05 - 75kg
30/06 - 72kg
31/07 - 69kg
31/08 - GOAL!

I think I will reward myself everytime I get into a new decade eg: the 70's then the 60's. Not sure exactly what I will reward myself with but I am sure I'll think of something.

My birthday is on the 22nd March and I would REALLY like to be below 80kg by then but I am trying to be realistic.

It has been so hot here so I am finding it hard to get motovated to get out and exercise. I really have to though. I am so slack..... *sigh*

Oh well..... hope everyone is having a great Australia Day.

Going well

Well so far so good.

I have been on track all week so I am hoping for a good result on the scales next week. I havn't had time to exercise so I hope the eating has done enough.

Introduction

Hi and welcome to my blog.

This is going to be pretty much a journal about my weightloss. I joined Weight Watchers on Monday 8th January. I weighed in at 89.7kg (197lbs). My goal is 65kg (143lbs).

This is probably the 7th time I have joined WW in the past 7 years. I have had varied success with the program with only myself to blame for the failures. I know it works its just getting myself motivated that is hard.

My story:

I was always skinny. Even after gaining 30kg during my preganancy when I was 18, I got back down to size 8 within 3 months. But as I hit my 20's things changed.

I got up to about 70kgs in my early 20's while in a bad relationship. I had no self esteem and didn't care about myself.

I then got out of the relationship and got down to about 55kg.

Then I moved in with my new boyfriend who was 6'2 and loved his food. I began eating the same servings as him without even thinking about it and the weight crept back on again. I hit 65kg when I first joined WW. I struggled to really lose much at all and quit after a few months. The weight kept on piling up and my boyfriend was less and less attracted to me until he basically refused to be intimate with me until I lost the weight. We were together nearly 6 years and for most of that time we had no physical relationship.

Just before it ended I started losing weight and got back down to about 70kg after he moved out.

I then met my now husband on the internet. Him being in the US and me in Australia. We fell for each other quite quickly. After being so miserable for so long and then finally being happy my weight dropped off quickly and when I flew to visit him I was about 65kg and a size 12.

I loved the way I looked. I was happy and finally felt confident.

When I came back to Australia my friend suggested we move in together as we were both living by ourselves. This sounded like a great idea as I needed to save up to get Billy to Australia etc.

So we moved in together and from day 1 I knew it was a mistake. Apart from the fact that she was very hard to live with, she was a large girl herself (about 120kg) and loved her junk food. It wasn't long until I gained back all the weight I had lost plus more.

I was devestated so we both joined WW. At first we both did really well. I lost 5kg in the first 2 weeks. Then she started to skip meetings and slipped back into bad habits. I followed.

Then Billy got here finally and I was so happy that I ate and ate and gained even more weight.

Things got strained with my friend and she moved out (no longer my friend anymore) and I took control of our food etc.

I joined WW about 3 months ago and weighed in at my heaviest 92kg. I didn't keep it up long as I started a new job which made it hard to attend a meeting the same time every week. So I soon gave up.

In the last month I have been going it alone at home, eating plenty of salads and healthy foods.

Then last week I got a coupon in the mail from WW for free joining so I took them up on it. I weighed in at 89.7kg which I was actaully happy about as it means I have lost weight since I joined last time.

I have been really good up until Saturday when I fell and sprained my ankle. I couldn't drive to get to the shops so I was at the mercy of what food we had in the house. So I have kind of gone off track a little bit but am trying to do damage control.

Well I think thats enough about me for now!!